Monday, January 13, 2014
Helpless
Nothing is going right in my life. Everything backfires on me. I'm helpless and hopeless. I'm kidding myself thinking if I lose weight things will be better.
Saturday, January 11, 2014
Today had the potential to be a really bad day healthwise. We spent much of the day in russellville. Usually that means eating at my parents who never have good healthy stuff or eating out. We chose to eat out. And we had Vietnamese! Yummy! I had spring rolls (4 points) and noodle soup (2 points) Breakfast was a good healthy start for the day which probably set me in the right direction. Omelet with turkey bacon goat cheese, spinach and tomatoes! 7 points! And dinner was a strawberry spinach goat cheese salad! 6 points! I have 11 points left to use for the day but I'm stuffed! Woohoo!
Friday, January 10, 2014
I love my husband!
I woke up this morning with a new subscription to weight watchers! Now some women may be offended by this. They may think "what the hell is he saying?? I'm fat??" But not me! He knew how much I've been wanting to rejoin but that I wouldn't ever do it because it's something for me and I don't like to spend money on me. So he just did it for me! Awesome! I've already spent way too much time on it today looking through recipes and logging points and reading articles and just remembering how awesome it is! Yay!!!!! I'm starting at 207 and they give you a 5% weight loss goal. That gives me a goal of roughly 196 pounds. I'll eventually get around to posting recipes and pictures of my food again. This morning I had an egg white omelet with spinach mushrooms turkey bacon and goat cheese and OH MY GOD it was amazing! I am allowed 32 points a day and I remember from before that it will go down as I lose weight. Breakfast was 7 points (I had a piece of toast with it) I love that fruits and veggies are 0 points too! I just love weight watchers! Keeping my fingers crossed it goes as great as it did last time!
Thursday, January 9, 2014
getting back into it
I've calmed down enough since I last wrote and realized I'm just pissed at myself. So I got over it. And started. I'm going on day 3 of being healthy and living my old life style and I'm already feeling 100% better. I downloaded an exercise channel and have been doing yoga again. I've got a long way to go till I'm back to the level I was at, but when I really think about it, it's been nearly 2 years since I was faithfully devoted to it so it's not a big surprise. I can't believe it's been almost 2 years since I let myself start sliding back into an unhealthy way of living after I felt so good when I was doing it right! I guess that's what new love does to a person! haha! Still in love with my husband that I met almost 2 years ago, but I'm not the same person he fell in love with and I want to be her again. She was happy and energetic and more confident and sexy! So I'm mostly doing this for me, but let's be real, we all want to look good for our loves! Anyway, I've gone almost completely back to how I was eating on weight watchers. I should join it again so I can really get back to it, then cancel after the 3 month trial like I did before. I'll see. Right now counting calories and tracking what I eat and keeping it around 1200 is working. I've lost 3 pounds since I started 3 days ago! My goal this time around is just to get back into my clothes. Since I started gaining all the weight back (when I got pregnant) I've pretty much worn nothing but yoga pants and t shirts or sweatshirts. All the cute clothes and the jeans in my closet are mocking me! I would LOVE to put on a pair of jeans and look good in them! I know that since I had twins my stomach will never be the same, but I'm ok with that. I just want to be able to wear normal clothes. I want to have energy to play with the boys when they get older. I want to have energy to keep up with maddie too cause she's a handful! She's starting school this year too. Yikes! Anyway- if I have to put a number on my goal (which I don't) I would say it's 150-160. I've done what I did before and set goals and a timeline, but it's not quite as strict of a timeline this time. That discouraged me before. Not making a goal at a set time. So this time I would like be down to 170 by the end of may. Then give myself until my birthday to lose that last 10-20 pounds. Rewards along the way are all about things that will make me feel better in a completely selfish way. Like haircuts and makeovers and spa treatments. Hell when do I EVER get to do anything that is completely selfish anymore? I think even taking the time to write this blog entry feels selfish cause maddie and the boys are quietly watching tv instead of playing with me. I guess I should try to get used to it because "me time" or making more time for it at least, is one of my new years resolutions. My stress level is through the roof at times and it always hits hardest after long periods of no me time. Which is often. I'm taking anti anxiety and anti depressants and would love to not need them. I didn't need them when I was healthy before and I can get there again. I've already began experiencing the benefits of the yoga I've started and feel happy right now! Which may not seem like much but I haven't really felt happy since the boys were born. The traumatic birth experience followed by months of the babies in the NICU put me into a pretty deep bout of post-partum depression and the post traumatic stress disorder symptoms have gotten worse. I know it drives everyone around me crazy so I have to try to do what I can to stop it. Maybe concentrating on my health and wellbeing in a way I can control will help push aside and away the stuff I can't control.
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Bagel Sandwich
This was the best breakfast I have had in a while! One mini whole grain bagel, 2 slices turkey bacon, 1/4 cup egg whites and 1 slice cheese served with 1/2 banana and 1/2 cup strawberries. Total points- 6! Also- I have decided turkey bacon is FAR superior to regular bacon and I am dead serious!
Orange-Black bean salad and fish
YUM! this was so good! And so easy! Just saute some onion and garlic in a little bit of olive oil, add some ground cumin then add black beans, red wine vinegar and fresh orange juice. Toss in some Oranges at the last minute and serve! Amazing! I served mine with some pan grilled mahi mahi. One of the best combinations of food I have ever had!
Chicken Enchilada Casserole
mmmmmm....this was awesome and I ate it for at least 4 meals!
Mexican Meatloaf
this was amazing! No clue wha tI put in it, if you want the recipe I will dig it up, it was good though!
Shrimp curry
Mmmm thai food at home!
Spinach strawberry salad with goat cheese and orange balsamic vinegrette
Yummiest salad I've ever made! baby spinach tossed with sliced strawberries, goat cheese, and pistachio nuts. Dressing is orange juice, balsamic vinegar, canola oil, salt and pepper. Very tasty and simple!
Green Monster Smoothie (and Maddie's juice)
milk, fruit and spinach, what's not to love?
Alternative
I almost broke down and got some diet pills. Instead I bought these: some fiber choice tablet things that actually taste really good, and a multi vitamin that supports metabolism. I took them both this morning and have tons of extra energy and do not feel starved! Yay!
Day one, off to a happy start....
Breakfast: 1 whole egg, 1 egg white, half banana, 1 mini whole grain bagel. Lunch: 1 cup progresso light zesty Santa fe soup. Dinner: 3 oz fillet mignon, asparagus, sweet potatoes, and french bread
Beans rice and cornbread, can't go wrong!
1/2 cup pinto beans, 1/4 cip jasmine rice and small slice of cornbread. I like to serve my food in small bowls/plates...I guess the mind trick works for me cause this looked like a ton of food!
My daily breakfast
This is a wonderful and filling breakfast. I make a fruit smoothie (1/2 cup milk with about a cup of mixed fruit, whatever I have on hand) then serve it with some egg whites mixed with whatever veggies I have on hand, and a mini whole grain bagel. the whole thing has 5 pts and I am so full that I don't even think about food till about 5 hours later.
Veggie Pizza
garlic olive oil, then pizza sauce, lots of fresh veggies and CHEESE! Just 4 pts a slice!
Baked Ziti
turkey sausage, bell pepper, onion, diced tomato, frozen peas, lots of herbs, whole grain pasta and cheese. Very easy and yummy! Filling, and there are tons of leftovers!
Day 4
Breakfast: honey nut cheerios and 1/2 cup milk Lunch: 6 piece chickennugget kids meal from Chick Fil A with fruit cup instead of fries and milk to drink Dinner: lean hamburger patty on whole grain mini bagel with tater tots. Picture is of my favorite Sonic drink... a large WATER
the filling for my greek omelet
artichoke hearts, spinach, olives, mushrooms, and tomato! Very tasty!
Made from leftovers!
beans, rice and shrimp in my baja yogurt sauce. Served with corn tortillas. Quite tasty!
Fajita Pork and Pasta
This was sooo good! I'm on a roll with these weight watchers meals! Very easy- 1 onion, 3 bell peppers (green, red and yellow) 1 zucchini a couple carrots cook till tender (seasoned with ground cumin, chili powder and garlic powder) then add some pork (seasoned with the same thing) and heat through. Toss with whole wheat pasta and you're done! I added some garlic in there somewhere too, I think with the veggies. Oh and at the end throw in a can of rotel, it kidna helps hold it all together. Yummy!
Baked Tilapia
Tonight's dinner was so good! I made baked Tilapia- just seasoned both sides of the filet with salt and pepper then covered the tops with a garlic herb blend and fresh lemon juice and broiled for about 10 minutes. Served with orange cilantro black bean salad ( one of my favorite new recipes) and rice! So good!
Day 3
Breakfast: Apple Cinnamon Cheerios with 1/2 cup 2% milk, Lunch: whole grain tortilla with grilled chicken breast and veggie mixture of corn, black beans and brocolli, Dinner: roasted pork loin and apples, green beans, and french bread, snack: peaches and raspberries
Fish Tacos
this was good! I made fish stickes (tilapia with some seasoned flour and bread crumbs) then served it in corn tortillas with a yogurt sauce (plain fat free yogurt, lime juice, chipotle in adobo and salt/pepper) Made black beans and rice for a side dish
Lemon chocken with artichokes and spinach
This was better than it looks, but not much! I think if I had used the capers and fresh spinach the recipe called for it would have been better. Instead I omitted the capers cause I didn't have any and used frozen spinach. the sauce is good though- lemon zest, lemon juice, chicken broth, corn starch and sugar. Season chicken with salt pepper and dill. Mix sauce with artichoke hearts and spinach and serve over chicken. Not bad, but not as good as the rest of the recipes!
Sauted Shrimp and zucchini
Another very good recipe from WW and also very easy. Saute some zucchini in a little olive oil, add shrimp and grape tomatoes. Season with salt pepper and oregano. I served mine with angel hair pasta
Goat Cheese Souffle with fruit salad
Souffle: 3 eggs, seperated, some dill weed, salt and pepper, 1/2 tbs butter and 1-2 oz goat cheese. mix egg yold with dill weed salt and pepper, set aside. In large mixing bowl whip egg whites with electric mixer till soft peaks form (about 2-3 minutes) fold in yolk mixture till combined. Poor into pie dish buttered with 1/2 tbs butter. Crumble goat cheese on top. Place in 400 degree oven for 10 minutes. Eat! Yummy! The whole thing has about 10 points, I cut mine into 4 servings, so this is a nice light breakfast for a few people when served with a good fresh fruit salad- just 3 points!
Mediterranean Chicken
Tangy and tasty!