Wednesday, August 10, 2016
Back in February I decided I'd had enough. With my weight (this is, after all, supposed to be a weight loss blog). I went to my doctor and had her prescribe me some pills that made me feel unstoppable. In a month I dropped 15 pounds! I ate healthy and worked out religiously. It was great and if I could have stayed on those pills indefinitely I would have. Unfortunately they are only approved for 3 months of use at a time. We can all guess what happened next right? I went from 225 down to 201 in the three months I was on them. By the middle of May I was feeling good and thought for sure that I didn't need the pills. After all I was going to the gym daily and craved it and craved the healthy food so I was convinced it was me not the pills doing the work. Well....that was an incorrect assumption. As soon as I was off of them I was hungry. All the time. And nothing ever sounded good. So instead of eating a healthy meal or even small healthy snacks I just ate whatever the boys ate. In part because on top of my hunger I was tired. No more energy to make my own meals. Since I was so tired I started sleeping in and skipping the gym. So before I knew it it was August 10 and I'm back up to 215 and haven't been to the gym since the middle of July. And even that was only for a week. The last time I was consistent was May. I blame it on school being out. But I know that's just a stupid excuse.
So today. Wednesday August 10, 2016 at 11:51 am I'm deciding to start over. Again. Today I decide that I am worth it. Today I will drink my dang water and eat some almonds! I wont sit on my butt and let it continue to expand. I wont let myself become overwhelmed with the tasks of daily life with 3 year old twins. I wont let the drama of having 3 teenage girls drag me down. I wont let the guilt I feel over the growing distance between maddie and myself stop me. I have to do this. Not despite them all but because of them. Because I have 6 kids who depend on me. Because I have a hard working husband who needs a happy healthy wife to come home to. Because I need it for me. I need to feel proud of who I am and I need the confidence to become I am supposed to be. So yay for ruling the world today!
Tuesday, November 4, 2014
Thursday, October 2, 2014
I finally made it below 200!! Barely but 199.8 is under 200! It took longer than I had hoped but that's what happens when I let myself completely get off track for 2 weeks. Anyway that's all I wanted to say today. Boring I know. I don't want to get too excited yet though. Not until I meet my next goal. Then I may celebrate :-)