reminder

Do you ever get frustrated because things are moving too slowly in your life? Many people don't realize that building a foundation for success does not happen overnight. It is a slow process in which you are constantly working and learning. After all, that foundation must remain strong, even in times of failure or crisis. This takes time! You may have to remind yourself that "failing" is only failure if you quit; otherwise it's a learning opportunity. So don't worry if your life seems to be moving in slow motion. Concentrate on building a solid foundation and learning from your back steps

My Plan

So I've been going at this weight loss/ healthy lifestyle/ exercise/ love myself shit for years now. Seriously, when will I just get it? I am a quitter and loser. The fact that it's a couple of years later and I'm here starting over is proof positive. I've got a million and half excuses as to why I gained the weight back but not a single one of them matters. I need to do this. I need to push myself and get over the quitter mentality. I've learned that I'm a miserable person when I'm unhealthy. If anything came out of previous success it's that knowledge. Being healthy makes me happy. Simple as that. I have to do this. MY life depends on it.

As much as I know about eating healthy and exercise I swear I could be a nutritionist...I've just never stuck with anything long enough for it work. I always give up and find myself constantly saying "f*ck it" Yes that is exactly what I say...when I have dieted for a week and eat something bad, I give up. When I workout for a month or two, then miss a few days, I give up. When I'm exhausted because I spend all day cleaning and chasing after babies I go to bed instead of doing yoga. I sleep in instead of dragging my ass out of bed and working out when my husband goes to work. I am a lazy quitter. Always have been. Well for the last year I have been saying lots of fuck its and now here I am. Sitting not so pretty at 210 pounds. Awesome huh?! Now it's time to say bye bye to that attitude and find a new one!

I am setting a goal for myself of 5% of my body weight at a time. Since I weigh 210 pounds right now, that means 10.5 pounds is 5% of my body weight, I think....math and I have never gotten along very well. I'll try something a little different this time and figure out what 5% of each new weight is too...maybe that will keep me more motivated.

Anyway, as I meet my goals, I plan on rewarding myself! I NEVER reward myself, I wont even buy myself the right kind of shampoo half the time because I hate wasting money on me. But self help is a great thing and something to look forward to. My rewards will always non food items and always something personal.

I will also make a meal plan each saturday night, buy the groceries sunday and stick with it through the week. I will be making Brian do this with me and he will lose more weight than me and I will get jealous but that will not make me quit like it would have in the past. I will be able to fit into my clothes again. I will want to dress up and put on makeup and fix myhair again. I will feel like a human being again. And I WILL learn to love myself FINALLY!

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Adjusting is harder than I thought!

Adjusting to life on my own, on a set and fairly strict budget that is.  I have everything, every $ planned and I am so not used to it yet! My food budget for the month of november was set at $50, what did I do today....a week early...went and spent $75 on groceries! Grrr!  Granted it was $75 very well spent being that it was at Aldi and I love that store so much, it's the only place I shop anymore! I didn't really need much, my list consisted of salsa, corn tortillas and bananas. Guess it's true you should never go to the store hungry. Yikes!  Anyway, I got a lot of staples that will last a while and are pretty healthy, whole grain pastas, fruits, veggies, beans, yogurt, juice, boneless skinless chicken breasts....so not too bad! No splurges either!  Nothing that I wouldn't willingly admit to eating! Of course Maddie's required not so healthy items made their way in, but she's 2! Anyway, now I have put myself into a bad situation with the first of the month and not only rent but also Maddie's tuition due, but I think I can make it. If not and I have to dip into savings, lesson learned I hope. Anyway...

Maddie is with her daddy tonight. And I miss her like crazy!  I was excited to have some free time to shop, cook, clean etc...and I will do all that, but I just wish she was here with me! I know she needs to spend time with him, but I want her all to myself!

So since I do have the rest of the week and the weekend to myself here's the plan.  Tonight- cook! I'm making a chili bake with a recipe I found on Hungry Girl's newletter that looks really good and it really low in points! Then I am going to make some salmon cakes.  I may also go ahead and grill some chicken breasts so I can have them ready for salads, quesadillas, whatever.  Very fun night planned.  ha.  Then after the cooking is done it's meal planning time.  I am such a nerd and really enjoy that and take it waaay too seriously as well. It really seems to be the only thing that works for me.  Apparently I have no will power.  Not with shopping and spending my money or with controlling my eating when left alone. So I'll do what it takes!

Tonight's dinner was an improvised one that came about because I didn't feel like making what I had planned...baked tilapia with couscous and veggies.  As good as that would have been it would have taken 30 minutes. I'm lazy. Instead I made a turkey swiss sauerkraut sandwich that was SO good!  At Aldi I bought some sweet german mustard and the sauerkraut.  I guess being october I was craving it who knows, anyway, I threw some fat free turkey lunch meat and a slice of swiss cheese on 2 pieces of toasted whole grain bread slathered it with the mustard and loaded it with the kraut. Then stuck it in a skillet and heated it through! AMAZING, easy, and just 8 points....which oddly enough is exactly how many points I had left for the day!

well I guess that's it for now. Nothing too spectacular tonight.  I recently subscribed to a clean eating newsletter so I may start trying out some new clean recipes and seeing how that goes. Still don't have the balls for the gym...working on it.  They have a promotion now for 6 months free.  Did I mention that before? Anyway, maybe that will do the trick. I have my doubts.  I'll get there.

Oh AND thanks to a co-worker I'm gonna start working on this damn student loan and other debt that I am in.  She gave me the basic Dave Ramsey overview and I'm going to try it out and see how it goes.  So my $75 Aldi splurges may have to stop for real!  I have to start being more responsible with my finances. So far I've been lucky and my parents are very generous but that may not always be the case, they have debt out the dang eyeballs as well! Anyway, I'll write about it as it goes. Gotta try something! I'm hoping to eventually be promoted at work, not anytime soon I am afraid, but anything at anytime would be wonderful!
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Bagel Sandwich

Bagel Sandwich
This was the best breakfast I have had in a while! One mini whole grain bagel, 2 slices turkey bacon, 1/4 cup egg whites and 1 slice cheese served with 1/2 banana and 1/2 cup strawberries. Total points- 6! Also- I have decided turkey bacon is FAR superior to regular bacon and I am dead serious!

Orange-Black bean salad and fish

Orange-Black bean salad and fish
YUM! this was so good! And so easy! Just saute some onion and garlic in a little bit of olive oil, add some ground cumin then add black beans, red wine vinegar and fresh orange juice. Toss in some Oranges at the last minute and serve! Amazing! I served mine with some pan grilled mahi mahi. One of the best combinations of food I have ever had!

Chicken Enchilada Casserole

Chicken Enchilada Casserole
mmmmmm....this was awesome and I ate it for at least 4 meals!

Mexican Meatloaf

Mexican Meatloaf
this was amazing! No clue wha tI put in it, if you want the recipe I will dig it up, it was good though!

Shrimp curry

Shrimp curry
Mmmm thai food at home!

Spinach strawberry salad with goat cheese and orange balsamic vinegrette

Spinach strawberry salad with goat cheese and orange balsamic vinegrette
Yummiest salad I've ever made! baby spinach tossed with sliced strawberries, goat cheese, and pistachio nuts. Dressing is orange juice, balsamic vinegar, canola oil, salt and pepper. Very tasty and simple!

Green Monster Smoothie (and Maddie's juice)

Green Monster Smoothie (and Maddie's juice)
milk, fruit and spinach, what's not to love?

Alternative

Alternative
I almost broke down and got some diet pills. Instead I bought these: some fiber choice tablet things that actually taste really good, and a multi vitamin that supports metabolism. I took them both this morning and have tons of extra energy and do not feel starved! Yay!

Day one, off to a happy start....

Day one, off to a happy start....
Breakfast: 1 whole egg, 1 egg white, half banana, 1 mini whole grain bagel. Lunch: 1 cup progresso light zesty Santa fe soup. Dinner: 3 oz fillet mignon, asparagus, sweet potatoes, and french bread

Beans rice and cornbread, can't go wrong!

Beans rice and cornbread, can't go wrong!
1/2 cup pinto beans, 1/4 cip jasmine rice and small slice of cornbread. I like to serve my food in small bowls/plates...I guess the mind trick works for me cause this looked like a ton of food!

My daily breakfast

My daily breakfast
This is a wonderful and filling breakfast. I make a fruit smoothie (1/2 cup milk with about a cup of mixed fruit, whatever I have on hand) then serve it with some egg whites mixed with whatever veggies I have on hand, and a mini whole grain bagel. the whole thing has 5 pts and I am so full that I don't even think about food till about 5 hours later.

Veggie Pizza

Veggie Pizza
garlic olive oil, then pizza sauce, lots of fresh veggies and CHEESE! Just 4 pts a slice!

Baked Ziti

Baked Ziti
turkey sausage, bell pepper, onion, diced tomato, frozen peas, lots of herbs, whole grain pasta and cheese. Very easy and yummy! Filling, and there are tons of leftovers!

Day 4

Day 4
Breakfast: honey nut cheerios and 1/2 cup milk Lunch: 6 piece chickennugget kids meal from Chick Fil A with fruit cup instead of fries and milk to drink Dinner: lean hamburger patty on whole grain mini bagel with tater tots. Picture is of my favorite Sonic drink... a large WATER

the filling for my greek omelet

the filling for my greek omelet
artichoke hearts, spinach, olives, mushrooms, and tomato! Very tasty!

Made from leftovers!

Made from leftovers!
beans, rice and shrimp in my baja yogurt sauce. Served with corn tortillas. Quite tasty!

Fajita Pork and Pasta

Fajita Pork and Pasta
This was sooo good! I'm on a roll with these weight watchers meals! Very easy- 1 onion, 3 bell peppers (green, red and yellow) 1 zucchini a couple carrots cook till tender (seasoned with ground cumin, chili powder and garlic powder) then add some pork (seasoned with the same thing) and heat through. Toss with whole wheat pasta and you're done! I added some garlic in there somewhere too, I think with the veggies. Oh and at the end throw in a can of rotel, it kidna helps hold it all together. Yummy!

Baked Tilapia

Baked Tilapia
Tonight's dinner was so good! I made baked Tilapia- just seasoned both sides of the filet with salt and pepper then covered the tops with a garlic herb blend and fresh lemon juice and broiled for about 10 minutes. Served with orange cilantro black bean salad ( one of my favorite new recipes) and rice! So good!

Day 3

Day 3
Breakfast: Apple Cinnamon Cheerios with 1/2 cup 2% milk, Lunch: whole grain tortilla with grilled chicken breast and veggie mixture of corn, black beans and brocolli, Dinner: roasted pork loin and apples, green beans, and french bread, snack: peaches and raspberries

Fish Tacos

Fish Tacos
this was good! I made fish stickes (tilapia with some seasoned flour and bread crumbs) then served it in corn tortillas with a yogurt sauce (plain fat free yogurt, lime juice, chipotle in adobo and salt/pepper) Made black beans and rice for a side dish

Lemon chocken with artichokes and spinach

Lemon chocken with artichokes and spinach
This was better than it looks, but not much! I think if I had used the capers and fresh spinach the recipe called for it would have been better. Instead I omitted the capers cause I didn't have any and used frozen spinach. the sauce is good though- lemon zest, lemon juice, chicken broth, corn starch and sugar. Season chicken with salt pepper and dill. Mix sauce with artichoke hearts and spinach and serve over chicken. Not bad, but not as good as the rest of the recipes!

Sauted Shrimp and zucchini

Sauted Shrimp and zucchini
Another very good recipe from WW and also very easy. Saute some zucchini in a little olive oil, add shrimp and grape tomatoes. Season with salt pepper and oregano. I served mine with angel hair pasta

Goat Cheese Souffle with fruit salad

Goat Cheese Souffle with fruit salad
Souffle: 3 eggs, seperated, some dill weed, salt and pepper, 1/2 tbs butter and 1-2 oz goat cheese. mix egg yold with dill weed salt and pepper, set aside. In large mixing bowl whip egg whites with electric mixer till soft peaks form (about 2-3 minutes) fold in yolk mixture till combined. Poor into pie dish buttered with 1/2 tbs butter. Crumble goat cheese on top. Place in 400 degree oven for 10 minutes. Eat! Yummy! The whole thing has about 10 points, I cut mine into 4 servings, so this is a nice light breakfast for a few people when served with a good fresh fruit salad- just 3 points!

Mediterranean Chicken

Mediterranean Chicken
Tangy and tasty!