overcome my fear of gyms that is. I have been talking and talking about joining a gym, so today I finally decided I would go and do something about it. I called World Gym, spoke with guy on the phone who seemed nice enough and set up a time to come in and tour the gym...which incidentally when I do join a gym it wont be World Gym..more on that in a minute. Anyway, I get there, can't even pull into the parking lot. Break into a sweat, turn around and head to the next gym on my list...Powerhouse. Same thing, get there, get in a spot this time, then back out and leave. So I head up to Springdale to try out Northwest. I've been there before, know it's old an dlaid back and not full of meatheads, can't even pull in to the parking lot. My heart started pounding I got nauseated. It's pathetic! What is wrong with me?? I remember when I joined St Mary's in Russellville at the beginning of the year I felt the same thing. I got there and turned around and went home. Luckily I had a friend who was meeting me there so I had to go back, and once I joined I was fine and actually loved going daily. Man I hope that happens again. This anxiety is insane! I know it's not a fear of working out at all either, that's the real shitty part. I love working out really, in a gym, not on my own. I HATE the feeling that people are looking at me and judging me and thinking why is that FAT girl in a gym! I know this is totally insane and illogical and that no one (at least no one worth caring about) is thinking this. Most people at a gym are only thinking about and looking at themselves anyway.....I know this but I still just can't do it! I find myself saying that once I get to a certain weight I will join....now it's "amanda, once you get down 10 pounds you can reward yourself with a gym membership, it's just 10 pounds, wont be too long!" But that is SO STUPID! I need to join to lose those 10 pounds!! GRRRRRRR
Anyway, I wont be joining world gym when I do get over this stupid social anxiety issue. I called and when spoke to the night enough guy was told that their fit kids program takes kids 3 and up...so that leaves out poor maddie. He still tried to get me to come in though! He asked if she was potty trained I said selectively. He said well come in and we'll see what we can do. I asked if they made exceptions and he said no....SOOO he wanted me to come in and join a gym that I wouldn't be able to attend because I couldn't bring my daughter. Doesn't seem too customer friendly if you ask me. I'm thinking Northwest will be my best bet. It's relatively inexpensive as gyms go, has childcare for all ages and aerobics, yoga, spinning, etc...are all included. There is also tanning which I know I should avoid but sometimes it's the only thing that can relax me.
How do I get over this fear of the gym though? I'm stuck! I can not believe that I couldn't even physically walk in the door! I feel like such a loser right now!
Anyway, on a more positive note, breakfast was great today! the Mini Mexican breakfast quiches I made are great! Here's a pic! The recipe was bisquick, butter (I can't believe it's not butter) and some hot water to form a crust, pressed the crust into the bottom of muffin pans. then the filling was black beans, salsa, egg substitute, and some milk. I filled the muffin cups up and baked at 375 for about 20 minutes. I topped them with extra salsa when I ate it! These are great! at 2 of them have just 5 points! Yay!
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