reminder
Do you ever get frustrated because things are moving too slowly in your life? Many people don't realize that building a foundation for success does not happen overnight. It is a slow process in which you are constantly working and learning. After all, that foundation must remain strong, even in times of failure or crisis. This takes time! You may have to remind yourself that "failing" is only failure if you quit; otherwise it's a learning opportunity. So don't worry if your life seems to be moving in slow motion. Concentrate on building a solid foundation and learning from your back steps
My Plan
So I've been going at this weight loss/ healthy lifestyle/ exercise/ love myself shit for years now. Seriously, when will I just get it? I am a quitter and loser. The fact that it's a couple of years later and I'm here starting over is proof positive. I've got a million and half excuses as to why I gained the weight back but not a single one of them matters. I need to do this. I need to push myself and get over the quitter mentality. I've learned that I'm a miserable person when I'm unhealthy. If anything came out of previous success it's that knowledge. Being healthy makes me happy. Simple as that. I have to do this. MY life depends on it.
I am setting a goal for myself of 5% of my body weight at a time. Since I weigh 210 pounds right now, that means 10.5 pounds is 5% of my body weight, I think....math and I have never gotten along very well. I'll try something a little different this time and figure out what 5% of each new weight is too...maybe that will keep me more motivated.
Anyway, as I meet my goals, I plan on rewarding myself! I NEVER reward myself, I wont even buy myself the right kind of shampoo half the time because I hate wasting money on me. But self help is a great thing and something to look forward to. My rewards will always non food items and always something personal.
I will also make a meal plan each saturday night, buy the groceries sunday and stick with it through the week. I will be making Brian do this with me and he will lose more weight than me and I will get jealous but that will not make me quit like it would have in the past. I will be able to fit into my clothes again. I will want to dress up and put on makeup and fix myhair again. I will feel like a human being again. And I WILL learn to love myself FINALLY!
Saturday, November 5, 2011
It's all coming back!
I guess one week of completely healthy eating (well almost a week...5 days) helped me get back into the habit and find the courage I needed to join that pesky gym! Yay! I joined Northwest Athletic Club. It's old. It stinks. It's full of muscle-y men who just want to look at themselves and hog the equipment. BUT..it's a gym! It has what I need, it has classes, it has a treadmill, it has weights. IT HAS FREE CHILDCARE. Can you see what I truly excited about? That's really what made my decision. World gym is about the same price but doesn't have child care for kids maddie's age! Poor Maddie! So I went with the good old ghetto gym. There is a pool so that will be nice at least. Anyway, I'm exited about it and am currently in the process of making my workout schedule. I will make one, but I am sure it will change as I see what works best for Maddie and myself. I'm not sure if I should go straight there after I pick her up or try to go home and get her fed first. It's really up to maddie. I paid the membership, I'm going! They have yoga classes on tuesday and thursday nights at 6:30 so I am pretty sure I will end up taking maddie home to get her fed and then go, I feel horrible just taking her straight from daycare to childcare...poor girl! They also offer Zumba! I have never done a real Zumba class, I did one for a while at WOW that I loved but it was just partly zumba-like with other stuff mixed in. So I am excited about that one, it's also offered at a time that would allow me to take maddie home first and spend some time with her before I dump her off on someone else. It's sad, but I guess in the long run it will be worth it. She will get in the habit of going to the gym from an early age and when she is old enough to join me she can and then she hopefully wont get to the point that I continuously find myself at. MAybe she can start healthy and stay healthy. I already have pretty good eating habits established with her. She mostly wants fruit. She loves pasta and chicken and veggies. She's not much of a water drinker. I try, but she wants juice, so I water her juice down quite a bit. She takes her vitamin every day (it HAS to be the purple one...I'm not sure what I will do with the pink and orange ones when all the purple are gone) She is a kid though, and of course loves the usual, chicken nuggets, hot dogs, etc....she doesn't like chocolate much and never asks for sweet stuff. I'm so proud of my little dumpling! I know it's a totally different story when she stays with her dad, but I can't do anything about it and it's not worth stressing myself out over. She is also active. She likes to go outside and watch the ducks, or run around kicking a ball. She doesn't sit still to watch tv for very long and when she is watching it she is usually running circles around my couch! That was a lot to say just to say that Maddie seems to be catching on to our healthy lifestyle. I love her so much! She is the best little girl anyone could ever ask for and absolutely the reason I am making myself healthy.
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