I fasted for 24 hours, nothing but water and a few sips of black coffee. I has some blood work done and it was required, not like it was for weight loss purposes. Anyway, I knew when I was done with my appointment I would go a little crazy and I did not dissapoint. The people at the doctors office even joked that most people head right out the door and to the nearest drive thru and start the plan the next day, so I guess that got rid of some my guilt. Anyway before I get to what happend at the doctor I will just spill the horor story of the binge. First stop- Krispy Kreme. Purchase- 6 donuts (I ate 1, the rest are for maddie) next stop- Dairy Queen. Purchase- mushroom swiss burger with fries and a sprite. Ate the entire thing in 5 minutes I think. Last stop- Zaxby's. Purchase-w brownie batter milkskake (drank maybe half of it then wanted to vomit) Finally at church I had a handful of goldfish with the kids. Here comes the true confession- I threw up when I got home. Not sure if it was a combination of the side effects they mentioned I may experience from the B-12 shots or the huge mass of grease and sugar and just overall nastiness sitting in my stomach but it all came up. And no, before anyone wonders or thinks it I did NOT force it. I had a huge surge of nausea and now I feel better. I feel extremely energized. Thanks to the B-12 shot I am assuming. I get a shot once a week for the next month and if I always feel this way they may have just made them selves a lifetime customer. Not sure if it will help with my weight loss of not cause of what the doctor/nutritionist/whatever he was said. But I sure feel good. Anyway here is what he said- that based on what I eat now (or usually, I admitted to going through binge periods and fast food addictions and such) that I probably will just get a little boost but wont see the huge weight loss that most of his clients experience. I guess that's a good thing. I'm not obese I guess. Although my BMI was measured to be 27.5 which still puts me FIRMLY in the overweight category so I am very much justified in wanting to lose more weight. He said I could probably lose 20 pounds but that he doesn't recommend I get below 150. SOOO I guess I may have to adjust some goals and stuff! The office visit was nice. Just him and his person who gives shots- not sure what she is- she was nice, but had to poke me twice to draw blood which sucked! I was weighed, had my BMI checked blood drawn, jabbed with the shot then had a 30 minute talk with the doc about a weight loss/exercise plan that would work for me. And the shitty part- it's exactly what I do now. he was asking me for tips and recipes. Geez. Anyway it was fun and I'm excited about seeing some results or at least feeling them!
Meal plan for tomorrow:
Breakfast: english muffin, egg cheese, ham, fruit
Snack: fruit, yogurt
Lunch: chicken breast, tortilla, veggies
snack: carrot sticks
dinner: chicken breast, chick peas, mixed veggies, couscous
exercise: c25K week 2 day 3
I have a meal plan that they gave me- not with food but with categories (such as breakfast 1 protein, one starch, one fruit, one dairy, etc....) and I will probably use that as a guide to balance the healthy stuff out but essentially its what I've already been doing for a year (on and off ) now. Either way, I am excited again maybe this is the final boost I need to get down to a size I will be happy with!
reminder
Do you ever get frustrated because things are moving too slowly in your life? Many people don't realize that building a foundation for success does not happen overnight. It is a slow process in which you are constantly working and learning. After all, that foundation must remain strong, even in times of failure or crisis. This takes time! You may have to remind yourself that "failing" is only failure if you quit; otherwise it's a learning opportunity. So don't worry if your life seems to be moving in slow motion. Concentrate on building a solid foundation and learning from your back steps
My Plan
So I've been going at this weight loss/ healthy lifestyle/ exercise/ love myself shit for years now. Seriously, when will I just get it? I am a quitter and loser. The fact that it's a couple of years later and I'm here starting over is proof positive. I've got a million and half excuses as to why I gained the weight back but not a single one of them matters. I need to do this. I need to push myself and get over the quitter mentality. I've learned that I'm a miserable person when I'm unhealthy. If anything came out of previous success it's that knowledge. Being healthy makes me happy. Simple as that. I have to do this. MY life depends on it.
I am setting a goal for myself of 5% of my body weight at a time. Since I weigh 210 pounds right now, that means 10.5 pounds is 5% of my body weight, I think....math and I have never gotten along very well. I'll try something a little different this time and figure out what 5% of each new weight is too...maybe that will keep me more motivated.
Anyway, as I meet my goals, I plan on rewarding myself! I NEVER reward myself, I wont even buy myself the right kind of shampoo half the time because I hate wasting money on me. But self help is a great thing and something to look forward to. My rewards will always non food items and always something personal.
I will also make a meal plan each saturday night, buy the groceries sunday and stick with it through the week. I will be making Brian do this with me and he will lose more weight than me and I will get jealous but that will not make me quit like it would have in the past. I will be able to fit into my clothes again. I will want to dress up and put on makeup and fix myhair again. I will feel like a human being again. And I WILL learn to love myself FINALLY!
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