I have been doing this a little over a week now, and my old thoughts are starting to pop into my head. I have lost a little over a pound and I just don't feel like that is good enough. I am fighting the urge to get some diet pills, bit I know that they DONT WORK! Not permanently at least. I know that if I continue to eat healthy and stay active I will lose it and it will stay off but I am so impatient! I am praying for strength to stick to this, it's just a little unnerving that this soon into my lifestyle change I am already wanting to go back to my old ways. I must remember that I have taken pills before and I STILL here fat and unhealthy. No quick fixes please!
I bought an exercise ball yesterday, today during maddie's nap I am going to make up some kind of routine using it and hopefully make that my daily nap time ritual. I'm thinking of investing in some type of exercise machine too since some days you just can't get outside. I also have a resistance band and some 5 pound weights. Surely I can do something with those.
Today's menu: Breakast- honeynut cheerios with 2% milk and a bowl of peaches and raspberries. Lunch- Smart Ones meal and a banana with 1 tbsp peanut butter. Dinner: Roasted Tilapia with Orange Black bean salad and rice. Snack- yogurt and grapes.
I have also started taking a multi vitamin that enhances metabolism. I was told my a very knowledgeable fitness guru that this one is a good one to take!
I decided to start purchasing The Weght Watchers Smart Ones for lunch. At around $2.00 a meal they cant be beat as far as the bargain and they are quick and easy, which is a lifesaver being a stay at home mom with a crazy 2 year old running around while I cook!
reminder
Do you ever get frustrated because things are moving too slowly in your life? Many people don't realize that building a foundation for success does not happen overnight. It is a slow process in which you are constantly working and learning. After all, that foundation must remain strong, even in times of failure or crisis. This takes time! You may have to remind yourself that "failing" is only failure if you quit; otherwise it's a learning opportunity. So don't worry if your life seems to be moving in slow motion. Concentrate on building a solid foundation and learning from your back steps
My Plan
So I've been going at this weight loss/ healthy lifestyle/ exercise/ love myself shit for years now. Seriously, when will I just get it? I am a quitter and loser. The fact that it's a couple of years later and I'm here starting over is proof positive. I've got a million and half excuses as to why I gained the weight back but not a single one of them matters. I need to do this. I need to push myself and get over the quitter mentality. I've learned that I'm a miserable person when I'm unhealthy. If anything came out of previous success it's that knowledge. Being healthy makes me happy. Simple as that. I have to do this. MY life depends on it.
I am setting a goal for myself of 5% of my body weight at a time. Since I weigh 210 pounds right now, that means 10.5 pounds is 5% of my body weight, I think....math and I have never gotten along very well. I'll try something a little different this time and figure out what 5% of each new weight is too...maybe that will keep me more motivated.
Anyway, as I meet my goals, I plan on rewarding myself! I NEVER reward myself, I wont even buy myself the right kind of shampoo half the time because I hate wasting money on me. But self help is a great thing and something to look forward to. My rewards will always non food items and always something personal.
I will also make a meal plan each saturday night, buy the groceries sunday and stick with it through the week. I will be making Brian do this with me and he will lose more weight than me and I will get jealous but that will not make me quit like it would have in the past. I will be able to fit into my clothes again. I will want to dress up and put on makeup and fix myhair again. I will feel like a human being again. And I WILL learn to love myself FINALLY!
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WTG Amanda! I'm really proud of you. Don't be ashamed of facing temptation. The thing is when you face your demons head on, that's part of the process. My demon is the scale. I know that I feel better from eating right and exercising, but if the scale's not moving, I'm freaking out and tempted to binge. Then I go through this cycle of gaining more weight and coming back to starting again. Es no bueno! Now I'm counting how many days I'm on program as opposed to how much weight I'm losing. The weight will come off, it has to if I'm doing the right things. :)
ReplyDeleteLove ya girl! Keep posting the good recipes too!!
The scale is the DEVIL! I have that thing and want to just throw it out the window!
ReplyDeleteHey girl! Let's do it together. Support each other. We both have the same weight goal and apparently the same to lose. We CAN do it!
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Jan
Amanda! 1 pound a week is ideal! Don't let the discourage you sissy :) If it comes off too quickly it just comes back that quickly (or something like that...) I love you and know you can do this! :)
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