reminder
Do you ever get frustrated because things are moving too slowly in your life? Many people don't realize that building a foundation for success does not happen overnight. It is a slow process in which you are constantly working and learning. After all, that foundation must remain strong, even in times of failure or crisis. This takes time! You may have to remind yourself that "failing" is only failure if you quit; otherwise it's a learning opportunity. So don't worry if your life seems to be moving in slow motion. Concentrate on building a solid foundation and learning from your back steps
My Plan
So I've been going at this weight loss/ healthy lifestyle/ exercise/ love myself shit for years now. Seriously, when will I just get it? I am a quitter and loser. The fact that it's a couple of years later and I'm here starting over is proof positive. I've got a million and half excuses as to why I gained the weight back but not a single one of them matters. I need to do this. I need to push myself and get over the quitter mentality. I've learned that I'm a miserable person when I'm unhealthy. If anything came out of previous success it's that knowledge. Being healthy makes me happy. Simple as that. I have to do this. MY life depends on it.
I am setting a goal for myself of 5% of my body weight at a time. Since I weigh 210 pounds right now, that means 10.5 pounds is 5% of my body weight, I think....math and I have never gotten along very well. I'll try something a little different this time and figure out what 5% of each new weight is too...maybe that will keep me more motivated.
Anyway, as I meet my goals, I plan on rewarding myself! I NEVER reward myself, I wont even buy myself the right kind of shampoo half the time because I hate wasting money on me. But self help is a great thing and something to look forward to. My rewards will always non food items and always something personal.
I will also make a meal plan each saturday night, buy the groceries sunday and stick with it through the week. I will be making Brian do this with me and he will lose more weight than me and I will get jealous but that will not make me quit like it would have in the past. I will be able to fit into my clothes again. I will want to dress up and put on makeup and fix myhair again. I will feel like a human being again. And I WILL learn to love myself FINALLY!
Saturday, February 19, 2011
I HATE INTERVIEWS
So I am headed to fayetteville for my 500000th interview today. I am so sick of this. My tiny little bit of self confidence is dwindling and it's cause I keep hearing the word NO. All of these people out there, with no education whatsoever have these great jobs and are living perfectly happy while here I am, with a damn law degree, and can't find shit. I cuss a lot. Deal. I think I am going to start leaving that off of my resume. (the law degree, not the cussing) On a positive note....my anxiety level is so high cause of the interview that I can't touch food today. I made myself eat a small bowl of cheerios for breakfast and am going to eat a cup of vegan tomato basil soup for lunch. On a point scale, I am at 8 points for the day. I think I will probably do what I always do when I am upset after my interview fails...fast food. Except today I am smart about it. I planned it already. Chick Fil A. Kids meal. 6 piece nugget, fruit cup, and milk. Total points- 11!
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I was thinking that also, take the law degree off and just have your other education that will help more than you realize. I am so proud of you. Love you!! Remember tell yourself you are beautiful and that God doesn't make mistakes so you must be beautiful and perfect in his eyes and in the scheme of things, that's what matters.
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