Why does my body like 180 so much??

This ALWAYS happens to me!!  As long ago as I remember my body has ALWAYS gotten stuck at 180! It is enxt to impossible to get below it!  I don't know what to do!  No matter what I try i don't get below it! I mean maybe a pound or two, but it goes right back to 180! I think my lowest weight (pre high school) has been about 172-175. While I was quite happy there, I still wanted to lose more, but it never happened. It just goes right back up, stays at 180 for so long that I forget and then end up right back at 200. Grrrr.  Anyway, I started a new program Called Temple Builders which is this amazing lifestyle program developed by an amazing woman and I love it and am hoping it helps! I am still doing weight watchers, but her program is like a supplement and a sorta a spiritual guide for me.  I will write more about it later, but it's just healthy eating and working out more or less what I am already doing, but with a spiritual element built in. I did it before and actually was successfull for a while, till I flunked the bar and got depressed and decided food would be better than actually trying and studying again...great decision.   Anyway, I weighed myself this morning and I am...surprise 180...but that is better than the 184 I was at after Easter Weekend killed me. So I did meet my 180 goal (a few days late)!  I already got my reward haircut though, so no great reward for me now. Oh well.  Will just make the reqard at 170 that much better!  I am not sure I can get there in 5 weeks, unless I figure out something drastically different to do with my eating and workout routine.  Which I have to change, I have got to do more cardio. I am terrified to start running again, but I will try, and some step classes or something to challenge myself.  I look like I've lost more weight this week, but we shall see when I weigh myself monday! I am not going to so a cheat day this weekend, I may allow myself a few extra points, but not a whole weeks worth. Maybe that will help. Temple Builders starts monday- so now I will be counting calories as well as points. I've been curious to see how the two compare anyway Should be fun, lots of extra work, but interesting!

starting over

ok...so I have had some REALLY crappy days lately! I think the weather depressed me and made me eat. so anyway, I am starting over, brand new. from scratch. Yay me! I am going back to exactly what I did at the beginning. Breakfast- smoothie made with lots of fruit, spinach and 1/2 cup skim milk, egg whites with veggies, and a whole grain bread. Lunch- frozen meal with some fresh fruit, and a small healthy dinner. That worked at the beginning it should work again. I am also taking fiber pills again, I had gotten out of the habit and was always hungry, those help a lot. Also I switched back to a metabolism boosting one a day vitamin, again seems to be helping with my energy level. Something has to give. The whole no movement on the scale thing sucks. Here's a picture of breakfast! Egg white omelet with 1 slice turkey bacon, diced peppers and onions and 1/2 slice reduced fat cheese slice

That was harsh

I wasn't going to weigh myself today cause I knew it would be bad and I wasn't sure how I would handle it.  Well I did weigh myelf, and it was bad, but I think I handled it ok!  I gained 4 pounds over the weekend! Yikes!  I know that is not really how much I gained and that it will go away quickly, but still...it was so sad! I didn't freak out though! I was very careful with what I ate today and I went to the gym, no freak outs, no binges, no crying, etc...just kidna went oh that sucks, and got back on track. I didn't touch the mounds of easter candy still sitting around the house either, yay me! I did kinda cheat though, it was a day of nothing but convenience foods. Breakfast was a frozen english muffin turkey sausage and egg white sandwich, lunch was a healthy choice meal and dinner was a serving of steamfresh rice and veggies with some precooked grilled chicken cubes. So I know I probably had way too much sodium today and the scale wont move tomorrow even though I didnt have more than 20 points (I have 10 left to use if I want)

I didn't run at the gym, I was scared. Any my ipod was dead. I can not run without it. Maybe tomorrow, or wednesday.  I am just afraid I will try and my knees wil lkill me again. I guess I have to face my fear, but still. Yuck. Anyway, hopefully next week I will be back to my pre easter weight! ha

NOT looking forward t oweigh in tomorrow

I knew this weekend would be bad, but geez!  I lost all control!  I don't even have a clue how much I ate between saturday morning and the cadburry egg I ate about 3 minutes ago, butI am sure it is more points/calories that I am supposed to eat in an entire week. And I feel it too. I feel AWFUL!  No energy, nauseated, headache, crappy mood, the works.  My body is telling me to eat an apple but I keep reaching for maddie's easter basket!  I know what it is at this point....I have gone so overboard and I know I wont after tonight so I keep letting myself eat more and it's just not good, but I CAN NOT STOP!  This weekend was a painful reminder of how I used to eat on a daily basis. Or maybe a good reminder, maybe it's good to feel like this way to remind myself that I am not sacrificing when I chose grilled fish over a greasy hamburger. In the moment, sure I am, but I've learned there's more to it than that.  For me, my life works better with planning, and thinking about what I am doing, not living in the moment (when it comes to eating) and going with whatever makes me happy then.  I have a history of depression and trying to cover it with food, obviously it didn't help.  What has helped, and made me happier than usual in the past few months has been being good to myself! I know I've told a lot of people this, but I struggled with an eating disorder when I was a teenager. For years I would jsut eat what I want, then throw it all up. So even now, when I catch myself binging and out of control in the back of my mind there is still a tiny little voice telling me...go ahead, eat and don't stop, you can just go throw it up and start over and it's no big deal. And honestly, this weekend, I came REALLY close to doing just that.  Friday night something snapped. I could not stop eating.  I don't know what all I ate because I litterally had no control over it. Finally I calmed down and realized what I was doing and what I was planning on doing and stopped myself.  That set the tone for the whole weekend. It's ok, it's a new week, and even if I gained a few pounds, after a few days of being back on track the damage will be mostly reversed and I should be fine! In the past this weekend would have ended the whole process...GLAD to be over that! It's so nice to know I can do this from time to time and not let it derail me.

Ok enough of that.  I need to go the store and just buy some easy fresh healthy stuff for this week that doesn't take much prep time, I am losing steam when it comes to preparing meals every night. Not sure why...I love cooking and makig new stuff, but I guess I am just getting burnt out. Who knows.

Anyway, I am also going to try to start running again this week, my knees aren't really hurting anymore, so maybe they will be ok. I will probably start back on week 3 or so though and work my way back up one day at a a time.  I am also really needing to step up my cardio routine (besides assing running back in) I need to force my butt to go to a step class or cardio combat class or soemthing.  I am terrified of those classes so avoid them and take the easy way out by going to yoga or pilates (that I LOVE) but I know I would benefit so much from a really good hard cardio class! 2 weeks till Maddie's birthday and I need to be a hot mama! :) Still trying to talk myself into a 5 am class....still throwing my phone at the wall everytime it goes off at 4:45 and going back to sleep.  Maybe one day

I am so tired!

I don't know what the deal is lately, but I have zero energy. Maybe it's the weather?  I have to force myself to go to the gym and eat anything cause I am just too tired to do anything. Blah! I always feel better onceI go workout, even though my workouts are only half hearted lately.  I am ready to try running again, it's the only cardio workout that really makes me feel like I amdoing something. I like the eliptical but I just don't feel like I am doing enough! I've always been anemic so I am guessing that has something to do with how tired I am too...guess I need iron supplements or more spinach or something! I am going back to making green monster smoothies for breakfast, I had one today and my energy seems ot be a little higher thanit has been. We'll see! I am busy planning Maddie's birthday party for the next few weeks so these posts will probably be few and far between! I am too excited about it, and I am trying to figure out some good party foods that I can eat and not feel too guilty about.  I fully plan on enjoying cake and ice cream at my own daughter's birthday party, but beyond that, I need party snack ideas! Besides the usual fruit and veggie trays. With easter this weekend and maddie's party coming up, I am gonna have some tough and tempting weekends...I need help!! Eeek! 

I cheated!

I stepped on the scale this morning and it said 179! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! Now...I am aware that that isn't accurate cause you can't lose 2 pounds (really) overnight, but still, to see the scale UNDER 180 for the first time in like 3 years...what a way to start the day!

I think I may change my weigh in day to monday. Sundays aren't good casue they come right after saturday, which comes right after friday. Those are the days I seem to want to be the worst.  Sunday is my cheat day, but I think I am gonna change that. The temptation isn't as strong on sunday so I kinda force myself to cheat, whereas on friday or saturday I always feel deprived cause I wont cheat. Makes sense to me. Monday is my new day! Woo hoo!

new measurements

Since the scale isn't being very nice to me, I measured my bust and waist and all that to remind myself that I am lose (Thanks Beth!) and was happy with the results! Here they are!

Bust (Starting at 44 in) now : 41
Waist (starting at 39) now: 36
Hips (starting at 45) now: 42
Arms ( starting at 14) now 12.5
Thighs (starting at 25) now 24

I also have to remind myself that even though I started this blog at 200 pounds, I was 210 pounds at the beginning of the year. So I have lost close to 30 overall! Sometimes I forget that I was that heavy!

I am starting to miss my twins, they are getting too small. Poor girls :(

Gonna try a fresh start

So the last few days of eating were not good...REALLY not good! I pretty much reverted to my old habits almost all day yesterday! And the thing that set it off? A cadburry egg! I saw one and thought I had to have it! So I did and it was tasty! But the day went downhill after that! I ended up snacking the rest of the day, on whatever was in front of me! I think I had about 10 pringles, a few handfuls of jelly beans, a reeses cup and some teddy grahams. Then for dinner we had steaks with roasted asparagus and baked potato. Which is healthy if you eat the right proportion! I think I had about 10 ounces of steak! Sure was good though! After dinner I still couldn't stop eating so I ate a big slice of key lime pie! Goodness! No wonder I am so huge! That is how I used to eat on a daily basis! I mean the day before the Egg was great! mini bagel with cream cheese and smoked salmon for breakfast and some rice with veggies and grilled chicken for lunch and a few pieces of fruit. That dang egg made me feel like I could just eat whatever cause I had already messed up! I looked up the points value on the egg...it was only 4! It could have easily fit in my plan! Grrr! Oh well, now I know!

So anyway, I am kinda tired of just losing 1 pound a week so I think I am gonna try something new. I am going to eat like I did in my first couple of weeks the program this week. I am going to look at my old menus, especially for the week I lost 3 pounds and try to follow that more closely. Also, my workouts need to be stepped up a notch or two! Which is gonna be hard cause I still don't think my knees are good enough to run on again and I don't want to risk really messing them up by running on them now. So this week I will be making the eliptical my new best friend for my cardio workouts, upping the weight amount on my weight training and still going to my much loved yoga and pilates classes! I am hoping to make it to one am cycling class, but that is still a pretty grand ambition...mornings are not my friend now that maddie finally lets me sleep!

I think I may make it to my goal weight of 180 this weekend too! Just as planned!  That's IF I can push myself hard this week cause I need to lose 2 pounds not just 1!!!! I am so excited to be so close to seeing that scale in the 170's again! It will be the first time since I went through my divorce years ago! nothing like a good divorce to make a gal lose weight! I think when I met John I weighed like 173 or something. Now I know that's not skinny, but for me, I felt great at that weight! I had confidence, felt sexy, had fun...all the stuff I just don't feel anymore!

Oh. the picture is my breakfast~ It was yummy! 1 whole wheat english muffine that I split with Maddie, fresh strawberries and blackberries, and an omelet made with egg whites, spinach, tomato, turkey bacon and reduced fat cheese. So good! And this is the breakfast that I used to eat daily when I was losing more weight! Maybe that's the trick?Who knows! I 'll figure it out! Now off to the gym! Woohoo!

What a day

Today was entirely too much for me.  This whole damn roller coaster that I can't seem to get off of is driving me insane.  The day started good, haircut, finally got down to my pre pregnancy weight, took decent pictures, maddie went to daycare and didn't scream when I dropped her off, I felt confident going into my interview...then the damn interview hit.  I don't know what's wrong with me anymore. I used to do se well in interviews. I used to have so much confidence and I just went in knowing I had the job and no one was better than me and I nailed the interviews and got the jobs. Now...not so much. I am a big ball of nerves who just sits there and shakes and stutters and can't answer the simplest questions and just laughs and giggles andsmiles like a big dumb ditz. I am kinda thinking it has to do with the amount of interviews I have had lately. I am just worn out.  I amhaving a hard time processing all the no's and I am letting it get to me. Instead of trying to stay positive and see these as practice opportunities I am thinking of them as missed chances. Which I know they aren't becasue when the right job comes along then I will get the job. But when you are putting yourself out there daily practically and never getting any positive feedback, it gets to you. It would bother anyone, I don't care how confident you are.  Anyway, after my failed intervew I thought I would go to the gym because if I can't control my nerves, I can control my weight. Wrong. I get there, and the first part of my run goes great.  I ran 7 minutes, didn't get out of breath a bit, wasn't hurting, had a nice stride going, I felt great. Then my leg started to cramp to I slowed down for a minute..maybe like 45 seconds to stretch it out and when I started running again it all went downhill.  I heard a sickening popping cracking sound in both of my knees at the same time and collapsed on the dang treadmill and fell off practically sobbing in agony. I don't know what the hell I did.  So I figured I would just finish my workout on the eliptical cause my knees were done but I couldn't even do that without crying out in pain. So I just went to the weight machines and did about 30 minutes there thenwent home feeling like a failure. It didn't stop there, oh no, I wanted to end this wonderful day with a bang.  I got home, and had a glass of wine...not just a small glass, one of the big balloon goblets, filled to the top with white wine, not even red so no heart benefits. Well I learned my lesson there, apparently with any alcohol all my will power goes to shit. I thought I would still eat a healthy dinner, and I did, a baked potato with a few ounces of lean brisket and 1 oz of low fat cheese. Then I had a cookie. Then that cookie turned to 4 and what good are cookies without a big glass of ice cold milk? Well, that's how my day ended.  Failure all around.  I am sure the fact that I didn't eat during the day because I was nervous didn't help my night time binge. It's ok though. Thankfully I don't have any interviews planned right now, and tomorrow is pilates.  I will eat a healthy breakfast, stay off of the scale in the morning and tomorrow will be good. Until the next obstacle appears. Then I just don't know what I will do. Somedays I handle them wonderfully, others, like today, I fail. I guess that's life. I just have to get back up and keep going no matter what set backs occur.  I thank God every minute of every day for Maddie...times like these, when everything seems just so pointless and like I have no control over anything and start to wonder why I bother trying, she looks at me and grins or reaches for my face for a kiss and suddenly I know why.

oh and this one!!

all dressed up and ready to go!

progress!

So I am at my pre-pregnancy weight, but not a thing about my body is the same! Lots of bumps and rolls that probably wont ever be completely gone!  I looked at maddie after taking this picture and (sarcastically) said thank you baby doll...she looked at me and with the sweetest most sincere voice I've ever heard, said "you're welcome mama" and gave me a big hug and kiss.  There's not a thing in this world I would trade these maddie rolls for. :)

I am starting to see the change!

I have muscles popping up on my arms and legs! I got to wear high heels and skirt today and my legs were starting to look sexy again!!  Yay me!!  I took the plunge and bought a good pair of running shoes today. I also took the day off from running and just did yoga. I am hoping my knees will be better after a 2 day rest and with the new shoes I can finish out week 4 without too much of a problem.  I had a job interview today, that made me want to eat, lots. After I got done I wanted to go to burger king and get a triple whopper and wash it down with a big oreo shake and a few orders of large fries.  I didn't feel good about it going into it and that just made things even worse.  I couldn't think of anwers to the questions they asked me, I couldn't find a way to bs on my experience, I answered some questions just wrong cause I wasn't paying attention. In short, it was just bad and I hope to get over it soon and hopefully have another interview lined up.  I know I am doing something wrong, cause I keep not getting hired, but usually I don' t know what. Today it was obvious. And to make matters worse, I knew one of the guys I interviewed with. He's on my facebook page and he's a good friend of John's so I am guessing I will get to hear first hand how poorly I did! Oh well...maybe over drinks or something so it wont be so painful! Anyway, I didn't eat. Instead I ran home (well really drove home) as I could and made myself go to yoga and put all my anger and frustrations into yoga and did amazing and have never felt better! I totally forgot about my botched interview until right now actually and have felt amazing all night! I came home and made some tacos out of grilled chicken breast, corn tortillas and mango salsa, ate that with a big salad and watched american idol! Much better than eating what I wanted to eat  and now I don't feel any guilt and the scale will thank me!

sore knees and gumbo!

I started week 4 of C25K today and thought my poor knees may just snap off of my body! It was terrible and I literally cried. I finished (5 minute warm up, 3 minute jog, 90 second walk, 5 minute jog, 2.5 minute walk, 3 minute jog, 90 second walk, 5 minute jog, 5 minute cool down) but I thought I would end up with no knees when all was said and done. It was maybe the worst pain I have ever felt. Worse than giving birth!! Of course that may be because I was so doped when I had little maddie that I didn't feel a thing but pure love...awwwww. Anywya, it hurt. I pushed through it, only pausing from time to time to stretch them out but I got right back on and kept going. When I got home I made a quick WW gumbo recipe that in my opinion was amazing!  I love anything with okra in it though so I am biased. So tomorrow my plan is to bite the bullet and purchase real running shoes. Wendesday and thursday I have job interviews, but they don't interfere with my workout time so I should be good for the rest of the week!

1 more down!

This one pound at a time thing stinks! But 1 lb down is better than 1 lb up! AND I am starting to see muscles! Yay muscles and a rising a butt!

It's getting much easier!

I finished week 3 of my training and this was the easiest week yet! I mean the running was hard and I wanted to quit, but this was the first week I didn't! Not one bit, I ran every second of each interval! Yay!!  My knees hurt though. I guess that is to be expected.  I also discovered that if I do my running, then go to a yoga or pilates class, that I am not sore the  next day! I guess it's the stretching we do in those classes or something, but it really seems to be helping.  I am starting to finally see a difference in myself too. Not just that my clothes are fitting (or not fitting cause they are too big) but myhair, skin, nails, all that look s better and I have a ton more energy finally.  That may have something to do with maddie's new love for sleeping in though. :) I think I have formed a habit of going to the gym. They say it takes like 3 weeks or something like that, of doing some daily, to make it a habit.  I've been going to the gym every day (except sunday) for a month now and I love it and it's not a problem at all to get up and go. I think money may be part of the reason, haha.  I figure if I am paying hell I'd better go! Anyway, guess that's it for now.  Weigh in day is sunday....I'm not expecting a change though.  I need to change something cause even though I am eating healthy and working out I am not losing.  I'm thinking of cutting back on any kind of meat and seeing what that does.  Not cutting it out totally, just maybe limiting it to one serving a day. I'm not really sure what else to change. I don't eat sweets, I don't snack on junk or anything. I eat fresh fruit or veggies when I need a snack. I'm just not sure. I wonder if I'm not eating enough or something. Now that I do workout I know my body needs more fuel, but I just have a hard time telling myself to eat more.  I'll figure it out!

Could I be one of them someday??

You know...the people you see who just look good? I don't know how else to say it.  We all know them, they workout al lthe time, eat healthy, are just HEALTHY and look it! I've always envied them, now I am starting to think that I could be them one day! what a realization! I am already in love with yoga and pilates and am starting to grow the love part of my love/hate relationship with running...so maybe I am getting there!  Yay me! Today was a good day, maybe that's why I feel like this! I most of my day in NWA interviewing for yet another job, went to target, then rushed back home...because I had to workout!  I was literally anxious that I wouldn't make it on time!  Now that is something I never thought I would feel!  I got to the gym at 5:00, did Week 3 day 3 of my C25K plan, once again thought I might die but didn't stop, just kept pushing myself, watching the tv's, closing my eyes and listening to my ipod..anything to keep from looking at the timer and before I knew it it was over and it was time for my favorite class of the week, yoga!  I love that stuff!  Maybe cause for a fat girl I am pretty dang good at it! I've always been flexible, even at my heaviest, so yoga is just kinda natural for me. I am sore from pilates yesterday, but tonights class really helped lossen me up.  I was also really good on my eating plan. Since I was in NWA for breakfast I brought a packet of plain oatmeal with a tbsp of raisins and some fruit for breakfast. Lunch I planned on chick fil a cause I LOVE that place! I had a kids meal with a 6 piece nugget, a fruit cup and a cup of low fat milk- total is like 7 points I think so that is wonderful! For dinner, since I was still on a yoga high and didn't want to eat anything heavy I just made some whole wheat spaghetti, sauteed some veggies and mixed it with some garlic and a tsp of olive oil and salt and pepper. It was very good! Light and satisfying! That's what the picture is by the way!  I took a few pictures of me ( I had to put on makeup today for my interview so I felt kinda cute) but I don't want to post them yet.  I know I have lost 20 pounds, but I still feel fat and ugly most of the time, even when I have good days like today, I don't feel attractive anymore. I am hoping that will change when I drop a few more pounds though! Anyway, long and boring post I know, sorry....time to go to bed!

Yay Monday!

After this morning fail I decided to be lazy part of the day. Yay me!  I mean I ate the right foods and all, but didn't bother going to the gym in the morning. I went this afternoon instead.  I finally started week 3 of the running thing.  I guess it still works that way...taking your time and doing weeks at your own pace, as long as they get done. It was hard, but I just kep telling myself that it wont kill me and it's only a few more minutes! Week 3 is a 5 minute warm up, 90 second job 90 second walk, 3 min job, 3 min walk, 90 second walk 90 second job 3 min walk 3 min job 5 minute cool down.  The 3 minutes almost killed me!  Not sure why!  I did it though, so I know I can do it again wednesday and friday! I had sweat rolling, running seems to be the only thing that does that! Then I did weights.  I really dislike doing weights in the afternoon. All of the men in their 30's and 40's and some older who are obsessed with working their arms are there and hog the machines. They get them all  nasty and put them on the highest weights and it's just gross. I did it anyway though. I'm sure it annoys them, oh well. Breakfast was a smart ones breakfast sandwich cause I didn't feel like cooking, lunch was a pita with spinach, turkey and honey mustard and a bell pepper with hummus (picture). It was good! Dinner was fajitas I had mostly peppers and onions with a little meat on corn tortillas with beans and rice. I also had a 90 calorie fiber one bar before I worked out, it always seems to help with the running.  I have 6 points left for the day. I may use them for some yogurt or ice cream later, but I doubt it. I like not using all my points.

Almost made it

I got up at 5:00 am this morning, got dressed and was just about to walk out the door. Then Maddie woke up. I got her back to sleep pretty quickly, but by that time it was past 5:30. so no am class today, but I can't say Ididn't try.  Dad's knee surgery is this week, so he and mom will be  gone thursday- sunday I think, so I wont be able to make it to am classes those days anyway. As a result, morning class will wait till enxt week when someone will be here to stay at the house with maddie! Pretty sure it's frowned upon to leave a sleeping 2 year old at home alone.  :) Oh, I also decided (and I know this is SO important to everyone) to actually start using the sauna and whirlpool at the gym. Why not..I pay for it dang it! Yay relaxation!

on food- last night was a monumentous failure!  Margaritas, chips, dip, steak, bread and birthday cake!  Every last bite was delicious and the company was great, so whatever! Back to the plan today! I have my whole life to lose weight, a few hours of fun and enjoyment wont screw it up

first setback of the month

I went to the gym this morning and was all ready for an hour and a half of a cardio sculpting class.  I got to the class, stations were all set up and ready to go, I thought. Then 5 minutes into the  class a woman walks in the door, comes to me and says "move you are in my spot that's my stuff" I didn't know! When I walked in there were lots of empty stations so I just thought the instructor had them ready to go.  Well by the time she walked in, late, all the spots were full. So I left.  I didn't leave the gym though, I just did the eliptical for a while then did some weights then left. So not a total waste.  I should have stayed in class, but there really was not space to set up a new station unless people moved around and I didn't want to make someone do that since it has already started. Oh well, lesson learned. Moving on! 

Happy April!

I can't believe it's already April! where in the world did march go??  I imagine April will soon go to the same place and then it will be may and my baby will be 2!!!  Holy crap!  When in the world did I become the mother of a 2 year old?!  Anyway, enough of that...march was good. Mostly.  I of course had my normal mood swings, and I expect this month will be no different.  the good thing is, I am learning to get over my mood swings a lot faster than I used to.  Lots of praying, and probably the stress relief of exercising is helping with that. So lets see...march...I lost arund 10 lbs, and started a running program. Yay me!  April- I will have more definite goals. I have 4 actually. Here they are.

1. Workout 5-6X a week
2. Plan and stick to a menu each day of the week (not just m-f)
3. Be able to run 1 full mile without stopping (not concerned with time yet, just actually doing it!)
4. Get below 180 lbs

I made a workout schedule too, that seems kinda strenuous and I'm not sure I will stick to it or not, but having it in place will give me some motivation.  I know I will make it to the gym almost everyday, that hasn't been a problem yet, but not so sure about the 5:30 am classes I have picked! Here's my schedule

Monday: 5:30- 6:30 am cycling; 6:350 7:00 am yoga; 4:00- 4:45 c25k and weight training
Tuesday: 4:30- 5:30 pm cardio/ mat pilates
Wednesday: 5:00- 5:30 pm c25k; 5:40- 6:30 yoga; 6:35- 6:55 weights
Thursday: 5:30- 6:30 am Turbo Sculpt
Friday: 5:30- 6:30 am Willpower and Grace; 10:00- 10:45 c25k and weight training
Saturday: 9:15- 10:45 whatever class the gym has that day

Should be fun.... HOWEVER, if I actually stick to this, by maddie's birthday I should be ready to look like one sexy mama!  Yeah, there's that shallow side coming out again. Whatever though, everyone knows part of the reason anyone loses weight is to look good and have other's tell you you look good. Even if that's not the main reason. So I'm just embracing it. I want to look and feel sexy again. Maybe I will even put a bathing suit on this summer.... Yikes! Happy April!